The Ashes
In the past months, I have lost track of days, dates, time and even meaning. Most things I knew to be meaningful are now fruitless, everything I thought was important has no weight now. Life as I knew it took a deep curve and I am still adjusting to my present reality. Nothing I ever did (consciously) before now prepared me for this moment of a strange time… Nothing!.
I had never imagined a life where absolutely nothing mattered except the air I breathe, not even my freedom, which I valued more than most things I had (have). Now, all those things appear to be worthless. Free will has lost meaning and value.
Because it is no longer enough to be free to move, there is fear holding me back….
I literally feel stuck and caged… sometimes.
The only thing that still has value in my life, is the very air that I am opportune to breathe daily.
Adjusting to a time where survival is all that matters hasn’t been easy. Knowing with all consciousness that one wrong step or turn could make one become part of a statistics isn’t easy.
Yet, it is a gift, to be fully aware and reminded of what really matters- Life.
I have gone through many challenging times in my life, but none that I can say we have both shared at the same time and in almost the same way (and I’m guessing you feel the same way too). The past five months have been the most challenging we’ve faced collectively as humans in a very long time. And oddly, I feel better knowing that you and I are in this one, together.
For the first time in my twenty something years on earth, you and I are sharing a similar struggle. And I celebrate this moment with you.
Weird for me to say that, right? What is there to celebrate in a pandemic?
But somehow I feel for once, you can relate to my situation, to my fears, my struggle.. You know.. I am not so alone after all… We are in this one together. However, that’s not all I am celebrating with you in this moment.
I also celebrate our path to a new beginning, which is happening now.
When a new beginning is upon us is when the battle is fiercest…
And we can all agree that this 2020 has been one fierce battle field… the struggle to stay safe, to survive, to provide, to make ends meet… it has really been tough. So, I have no doubt a new beginning is around the corner.
But there is a catch! You have to carry the burden of your cross on this path. Though we journey together on the same path, side by side, encouraging one another, each man must carry the burden of their cross.
The personal responsibility to change our mindset is that cross.
Read on changing your mindset here (The rising).
All my love,
E
Simi
This is exactly how I’ve been feeling, been struggling to put it into words but you did just that . Sigh. We are in this together. Stay Safe 🥰
Veronica Brownie
It’s crazy how relatable this post is!! Girl!! None of the things I thought were important before matter now. Such a weird period tbh! This is a very good piece..indeed 2020 has been a struggle even for things as little as a hug😫😫. Thank you for articulating our feelings. I am however grateful for having such amazing friends and family who serve as my strength as we walk this path❤️❤️
Jaye
The reality for us all- we are in this Together.
Osose
Celebrating our path to New beginnings, together
Xavier
“Per aspera ad astra”…. From hardship to the stars…hopefully we all will live to celebrate also….thank you
Tee
Thanks for sharing E! Everyone’s going through something this period and it’s good to be reminded that you aren’t alone and that this would end someday with a new beginning that awaits us